Actions and Consequences

Wow it's been awhile, so hello again to all of you who actually read this. In case you're wondering, the reason I haven't really posted much is that life started to kick me in the ass a bit. For the last two weeks or so I've been doing nothing but work ... literally nothing. I mean occasionally I force myself to relax but I have gotten little sleep and actually had three tests on last Friday. So it wasn't too fun, but I survived and I suppose that's all that matters. Everything is good and I really don't have anything until finals week, which is rather nice. So here I am, breathing sweet sweet fresh air of freedom, something I really don't get to do that often. Homework to do? Well I'll put it off until tomorrow. Why? Because I can. I have one assignment to do this week and I can turn it in anytime before I leave on Wednesday, so I'll do it tomorrow morning. It's kind of fun not feeling guilty about that :-D So on to my newest rant/discussion, I'm trying to make these more my own style of brainstorming about things rather than dramatic life evaluations, figured it'd be more fun and less depressing to read :-P

Possibilities, something that I focus a lot of my life on. I recently took a personality test thing along with the rest of my staff, and by recently I mean a few months ago, and one of the things it told me was that my thought pattern centers around evaluating choices, results, consequences and possibilities. I found it kind of disturbing because that is what I do, I consider the possible outcomes of all my actions to make sure that what follows is best for everyone and not just me. Considering that this is how I think I always find it sad, but not really surprising, how many people do the complete opposite. It is alarming how many people there are in the world that do what they want only for their own gain. To me that is completely impossible. My body rebels against me at the me possibility of hurting someone's feelings let alone ruining their life. I would never even consider doing anything that would have such bad consequences, and yet there are people who cheat on their significant others, people who steal or break the law, those who cheat, ones who bully, there are people who taunt, insult, and deliberately make others feel like shit. If there is one thing that can really piss me off it's those people who have absolutely no care for what their actions do to others. The number of times I've had to comfort people because someone just felt like breaking their heart or crushing their friendship for no apparent reason is appalling, and I hate it.

This has nothing to do with anything that has happened to me recently it's just one of those things I think about. Why? It's such a simple question and yet it has such tremendous repercussions. Why would someone purposefully hurt someone else? Why would someone make fun of someone else just to feel better? Why indeed. I doubt people like that even consider that they are doing something wrong, and what's worse is that nobody even tells them. Every action has consequences and it is up to us to see what they are and try to minimize the pain to others. Just because what you are doing seems to be the best option doesn't mean it actually is. Think that what you are doing will make things easier one someone? Are you sure? Really think about the person and how they would react. It actually made things worse? Oops, my bad. It's those kinds of things that we should avoid. The next time you do something really think about who it's going to affect and how they'll react. You'll be surprised at the sheer number of possibilities that arise in your mind. Will you always be able to predict how someone will react? No but at least you're trying, and when they do react most likely you've thought of the possibility and it won't be a complete surprise. There is more to life than ourselves and what we want, everyone has a stake in this world and every extra thought really does count. If you don't see results form your extra efforts then so what. You know you are doing the best you can and it really takes a load off your shoulders. Everyone makes mistakes, it happens and sometimes choices go bad, but just because there is a possibility doesn't mean you have to make it a certainty. Open your eyes and really see what you are doing. It's scary sometimes I know, but it's better to face the truth of what you're doing than pretend everything is dandy.

Live life how you want, but know there are others living it too.

Until next time, Shadow out :-D

Hope

Title sounds slightly dramatic, but you can deal with it :-P Things are starting to look up for the first time this year. I mean it's not like things have been bad by any means, but I've really only been coasting along. I've been keeping up with work and doing what I need to and talking to people when I can. But now things seem to be actually coming together in more ways than one. Track is looking to be great this year, we have faster runners and our 4x4 should be pretty good. I'm seeming to be in better shape than last year and am on the lookout for any slight injuries that could give my season a bad start. Coach and everyone else seems to have a great amount of faith in me which is really helping my own confidence, I'm really thinking it will be a great year and of course I'll keep you guys posted here if I don't talk to you in person.

My classes are also starting to come together, I mean they're hard and all but I know what I;m doing and should be able to get pretty good grades this year even with all of the stuff I have going on. RA stuff is still going well, my residents are awesome and they make my job sooooooo much easier. Then there are other areas that are looking up as well, at least hopefully so at this point. Haha this one is for you kyle ... Ruth :-D I'm not gonna go into too much detail about everything else that is going well but here's a message for Tricia ... Bunnies and Rainbows!!!!!

I hope your guys' lives are looking up as well and BLOG!!!!!! I need more things to distract me.

Until next time, Shadow out :-D