Relationships

Going through my facebook page earlier I found myself looking over the quotes I had posted. I always find it interesting to look at those, it seems to give me a good look into the different facets of my personality and emotions. I have this strange obsession with quotes, whether it be from songs or just ones I search for online. I'm sure many of you have noticed that my status is frequently some random quote that happens to represent how I'm feeling but don't really quite feel like saying. It's a way to express how I'm feeling without actually going into any details. The people who do know the reason behind the quote will know exactly what I'm thinking about and how I'm feeling while those who don't will just get an impression of my mood at the time. I don't really know what started my strange fascination with quotes, I suppose it's this idea I have that my words never express how I feel. I always seem to believe that the words of others express my own emotions in a way I could never do, that and it allows me to hide how I'm truly feeling.

People that have had serious heart to heart type conversations with me will know that my mind is a very dramatic and self sacrificing thing. When I share stories and emotions I'm feeling with other people it's always accompanied by some sob story about how it's better for them if I do this or that I'm fooling myself because how could they feel the same. I never know what I'm feeling or how I should feel. I'm a very emotional person and I fear for my relationships with people when I get extremely so. I overthink and overact when it comes to relationships, but it's just one of those things I learn to deal with. Things will happen if they're meant to and if people are supposed to stay in your life they will find a way to in the end. Relationships aren't so easily broken and if they are it's not like they should be mourned. Relationships, just like everything else we experience, shape our lives in ways we could never have imagined. Hell if the little love triangle crap hadn't screwed things up for me first semester I never would have found my girlfriend second semester. That went downhill and I'm still hoping to hear something from her, but I grew from that relationship, however short it may have been. It taught me something about myself that I can now try to fix and avoid in present endeavors. I have more hope that things will work out now because of things that happened with my last girlfriend. Yeah it sucked, but she taught me something, you will find the one that you belong with, people who want to be treated well will find me just as I will find them. You look for what you need, even if you don't know it. The relationships you find will be the ones you need, even if you aren't looking. And the ones that don't last are the ones you didn't need, some things just don't work out, so you move on.

Now back to the thing that started this long winded thing, one of the quotes I found on my facebook page is from a note a friend of mine wrote about relationships in college. I never really imagined him as the deep thinker type but his note struck me and really made me think. College is all about the relationships you make, about experiencing things help you grow into adulthood and shape who you are. They are what make things worthwhile while you are here and they are things that will follow you for the rest of your lives. Where did your parents meet? ... college. Who is your mom's best friend? ... her college roommate. Who does your dad drink with every friday night? ... his college buddies. Who are your brothers and sisters for life? ... your greek family. The relationships we build now will forever represent who we are and what we strive to be. Live life and just let things happen, they will come together when they are supposed to.

"College is about friendships, and the value of having new people in your life, people that will be there for you no matter what. It's about realizing your dream piece by piece, and class by class. It's about growing into adulthood, becoming a mature adult, hopefully. Above all however, I feel that college is about relationships, whether they be from sports, classes, or fraternities and sororities, the relationships you build in these places will be ones that last for years, and hopefully a few will last longer, being forever in your life and always there for you."

Until next time, Shadow out :-D