To the Future

So I'm writing this post now part because I want to write about recent stuff and part because I was told I should post. So here I am sitting in my bed at 1:30 in the morning with a smile that never seems to go away these days. I'm ... happy. Not like ok, not like somewhat good or a little better. I mean that I feel better than I have in awhile. Sure I've felt this way before but it's different. Before there is always some dread or fear creeping in, some thoughts that are poisoning an otherwise very happy mind. I seriously can't think of anything to be worried about. Classes are classes and track is track, but I actually have something to look forward to.

I can't really explain what's going through my mind because honestly, even I don't understand it. I'm still reeling from the impossibility of it all. On top of that I'm not even worried about mentioning it here. I'm pretty sure that most everyone knows how I feel at this point, especially her. Do I know where it's going? No not really. Do I really care? Not really (ok that's a lie but you know what I mean). It doesn't matter where it's going because we'll figure it out, one way or another. All I know is that in the matter of two ridiculous weeks I've most certainly found a great friend, but also .. more.

So this post is really just a toast to life and the future. I'm never really the most optimistic person so I might as well take advantage of it while the feeling lasts. To a future that is a mystery and yet has me looking forward for once with hopeful eyes not shaded by what I'm afraid will happen. Haha a toast to Bunnies and Rainbows.

Until next time, Shadow out :-D