First Impressions

I have realized recently how much I take advantage of the impressions people already have of me. I am a very exuberant person, most of you reading this should know that by now. I have realized that I really do not know how to control first impressions. As you know, I am an RA this year. Giving off first impression is a very important thing, but am I giving off a good impression? What do they think of me after knowing me for 3 weeks. I continue to make impressions on them. Recently I have realized that I am giving off a very strange vibe of myself. I have seemed very showy and full of myself. I like attention, that's a given, and I like to talk, another given. It just so happens that i combine those two in a way that could give off the wrong impression. I act that way all the time around my good friends, but that doesn't matter. They all know who I am and what I'm like, they know that I don't exactly have what you call high self esteem. So I make up for it with hyeprness. Around them it is perfectly fine, but around people who don't know me that well? ... who knows.

I guess I'm saying this because I'm afraid that maybe some of the residents this year think I take myself way too seriously. I guess I have show-boated ( no idea how that is supposed to be spelled) a bit more than usual recently, and some of the "joking" comments they make I worry aren't actually jokes. I'm talking with some of my residents and they mentioned that I went down to the third floor to show off. It sounded like a joke but do they really think that? I mean my friends from Tyler will laugh at this story because it is very Tyish. But I went downstairs without a shirt to talk to Julie about something. I always go around without a shirt, I like my body sure but i don't typically try to flaunt it (my abs don't count). But I guess to the residents it may seem like I'm showing off. I also seem to "brag" a lot. It's all in good fun of course but I must seem sooooooo full of myself. Once again, all my friends know I do this, but the new residents do not ... my bad.

Actually now that I think of it, some of the residents may even be reading this. I let slip I had a blog and of course I had to tell them what it was. So they read a post or two perhaps but if they actually bother to check up on it they may be reading this. Perhaps that's a good thing, then they'll know that I'm not as big a douchebag as I seem. Woohoo :-D This and the fact that I'm going to try and tone it down a bit ... if I can. Or at least stay on my own floor for awhile. My old habit of hanging on the girls floor is returning ... man I miss you guys. Idk maybe I'm trying to find some new people to hang out to make it feel more like last year. But they're residents and not people I can freely mooch off of. So we shall see how the year goes, and maybe I'll learn to act like an RA for once instead of the creeper I'm know, and apparently loved, as.

Until next time, Shadow out :-D