Time

Ah ... time, something I seem to be lacking more and more these days. Time to do work, time to have fun, time to see my friends, time to even talk to them. I'm drifting away, and I know it ... and yet there really is nothing I can do to stop it. I've stopped worrying about it because i realize there is nothing I really can do to change things at this point. I'll take advantage of the opportunities I have when they show themselves but I really can't create opportunities, at least not on my own. Quite often I may overlook times when I might be able to visit mainly because I convince myself that I really can't afford to because i have work to do, but that doesn't mean I'm against a little kidnapping :-D I sometimes have more time than I think but also that's not very often.

I realized how bad it was the other day when one of the pledges of my fraternity asked if I would have free time for an interview. I was like ok I'll let you know when I'm back and able. So class at 10:30, 11:30, break for lunch and a bit of work (sometimes), class at 2:00, 3:00, track practice at 4:30 till 6:30, followed by dinner so trek back to the other side of campus and back by 7:30 or 8:00, then homework until 11:00 ... then I have time for an interview. The sad thing is, this wasn't and extraordinary day. This actually happens on a regular basis. And my weekends really aren't that much better. I'm on call a good bit and when I'm not I have most of my work to do do I either legitimately have no time or convince myself I don't. :-( Hahaha I'm actually not complaining for once, I mean it sucks and I wish I could see my friends but it's not like I'm writing this to mope. I guess I just have this fear that all you guys think I'm purposefully avoiding you when I'm really not. I'm swamped and I really don't see break until I get to go home on December 20th or something. Yeah I have to stay until the last person moves out ... ouch. So anyway, hopefully I'll see you guys around and if not feel free to hunt me down my schedule is pretty predictable.

Until next time, Shadow out :-D