Whew, almost didn't remember to blog today. I'm really going to make sure I keep up with this thing. It's a great way to just get everything out that I'm thinking. I may not seem like the philosophical type, but I really do think a lot. Most of the time it's nothing important but it's still nice to write it down. I always have random thoughts going through my head and a lot of the time I never remember what it was I was thinking about. But now i have a nifty blog to keep track of everything.
Even with that kind of beginning there really isn't anything particular going through my mind right now. I'm just sitting in flyer's room next to my girlfriend, as she adds "in my pants" to the end of book titles. It's my last night in the halls of the freshman dorms, at least as a freshman. It's really making me think about this year and how I've grown. I'm maturing, something I didn't really think was possible. I've realized this year that all of the praise and faith people seem to have in me is actually well placed. I have never really been all that confident in myself and the faith and confidence everybody seems to have in me always seemed to bother me. I'm really not that great, I'm decent at track and i survive school but as far as I can tell that's it. There are plenty of other people who are faster than me and more dedicated than me at track and there are surely smarter people. I mean the school I go to is full of future doctors and such. But this year I went through a lot weeks where there literally weren't enough hours in the day. With track, my fraternity, applying to be an RA, friends, and a set of engineering classes with quite the workload, that really is quite an accomplishment. I know other people went through the same thing or something even worse, but for me it was tough. I not only survived but came out better than when I started. I have good grades, easily a 3.5, I'm a second away from qualifying for nationals in the 400 hurdles, and I'm an official brother.
All of this has shown me that maybe all the faith people have in me really isn't unfounded. I'm not saying like I was depressed about how pathetic I was before, but now I can walk with my head held high. I may not be the best at everything but I am decent at a lot. I can manage to deal with a lot of work along with sports and a social life and survive quite well. I'm going to need it next year as an RA but i feel I'm ready.
Well I'm going to stop blogging now and spend time time with my friends before we all have to go. My mom will be here tomorrow morning and I'll be leaving. She hates when I mention her, but I'm especially going to miss my girlfriend. I'll survive and all but it doesn't mean I won't miss her and everyone else. Well off to spend my last night in the halls of the building where I've made so many good friends. It's not the end of the world, but it is one chapter of my life I'm sure as hell going to miss.
Until next time, Shadow out :-D
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