Restless

So it's been about a week since I came home and things are back to normal. Unfortunately this includes my restlessness. All of you reading this who know me even a little bit know that I'm always on the move. Sure I get tired eventually, but most of the time I'm running around doing something. For the last few months that hasn't been a problem. I mean how can it when I'm in a building surrounded by people I'm good friends with. Anyway, now that I'm home I'm starting to feel the pangs of restlessness again. It's kind of a problem when you live out in the boonies 20 min away from all your friends. My family is all at school or work right now and even when they are home everyone is busy and doing they're own thing. My step dad always gives me crap about always sitting in my room, but what else can I do? If I go downstairs I'll be surrounded by screaming kids, who just get louder the more people there are, teenage girls complaining about not being able to find this or being late for that and just a really loud busy mess. If someone needs my help or needs something done then I'll gladly do it, but otherwise I prefer the quiet of my own room ... even if it does get lonely/boring. I'd hang out with friends but a lot of them are busy as well, working and all. That kind of bugs me, that I haven't gotten a job. I was planning to but then I was going to be staying a few extra weeks for track and I have to be back early for the RA training, and on top of that we have vacations to go to. There wasn't going to be any time for a job. And then there was the no go for track so I have time. But now I haven't been looking and the likelihood of getting a job for the bit of time I can work is rather slim. I'll start applying and stuff soon just to see but I'm still going to be bored and restless until then.

Restlessness is a frequent visitor with me. I can only play so many games or watch so many shows before I get the need to just do something. I'm blogging now because I'm restless. I can't just show up at my friends' houses because they have their own stuff to do and I'm starting to get bored with reading and video games, plus I feel guilty for sitting in my room all day all week. My dad said I could the mow the lawn at his house so i may do that, but then what? GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! I hate being restless. Some people enjoy the feeling of doing nothing but that's just not how I'm built to work. I'm built to go go go, full of energy and rearing to go .... except with nowhere to go. If someone called me and asked to play soccer or something I would throw on my shoes and be out the door in 2 minutes. It's nice to be free of school and such but it's kinda lonely to be back in my restless state. It even happens when I'm trying to sleep. Because I'm not doing anything I'm not tired and can't get to sleep. For people who are wondering, that's why I don't usually need all that much sleep. Unless I wear myself down, which is strangely hard to do, I don't sleep well. I can try but I usually wake up every so often. It's kind of annoying but oh well, unlimited energy has its downsides

Well I think i've occupied myself enough with blogging today, I'm getting more restless just sitting here. So I'm going to find something to do. Maybe I'll chase my dog around the yard or something, that's always fun. Well thanks for listening to my random, restless rambling.

Until next time, Shadow out :-D