Who am I?

Oh boy, my first update ... how exciting. Well I was thinking a lot yesterday about this whole blogging thing and why I really wanted to do it. It started as just a suggestion from a friend, who we can call bro down the hall, heehee aren't nicknames fun? Well anyway, I started because he had urged me to but now it's more personal. There's always been a side of me that I keep hidden from all but my closest friends. I mean some people get a glimpse every once and a while but for the most part I'm just happy go lucky runner kid. And with this whole blogging thing I can say how I feel and have always felt. I can get it out and say it once, and those who are reading this will know me that much better.
I feel that blogs are usually ways for people to anonymously talk about things without the fear of them being revealed, but I suppose I must disagree. I've already told a few people about this and I hope they read it regularly. Some may find it strange that I tell people where to find my anonymous blog but this is more of a medium to say things that I could never say in person. Honestly, I hate pity. If I told people in person how I feel I'll get these looks of pity and I don't need people worrying about me. As far as I'm concerned, that's my job. I put up with the crap and look after others, I don't need them worrying about me. Poeple won't accept help if they think I need their help. So here it is, my medium to tell the world who the real me is. If you care then read on and hopefully you'll appreciate what I do even more, although lots of you have already told me you do.

Well other than me supporting my blogging I figured I'd take this entry to introduce a few of the more important characters in my life. Taking a page out of bro down the hall's book, I'll give some people nicknames. Well one of the most important people, who I honestly don't shut up about, is my girlfriend. It's not very creative but I think girlfriend fits nicely for her. I know she hates the whole "title" idea but it works best here. And on another note, she's touchy about me spewing my heart out about her so I'll have to avoid doing that too much. Although now she's going to be touchy that I said that. Well let's just say she's a very touchy person ... mmm kinky. Next on the list are the disney freaks, the therapist and the soccer bully, maybe I'll call them by some disney princess names at some point. They are my best friends from back home, besides the best friend that is. They helped me through a rough time and now we are basically insepereable, more like they won't let me go. I'll tell you that story some other time. And then there is the best friend. He enjoys insulting me and popping my ego, what there is to pop, but somehow that all makes me feel better. He isn't one of those friends I can go to and spew my heart out to, but honestly I don't need to. He understands me a hell of a lot more than most people and I don't even know why. Just hanging out with him makes me feel better and he doesn't have to say a thing. It's great and I can't wait to pester him and his family over the summer. And then there is the track sis, the dance sis, the twins, the step sis, and the bro. My family, my life. The names are relatively fitting, although I know they each do a lot of the same things.
There are others but this entry is getting long enough as it is. I should warn you now that my blogs entries are most likely always going to be long. I like to talk as it is, and there is a lot I never say. I have a lot of pent up thoughts and feelings that I'm just going to let out. So bear along with the story of my life and of my soul. I have nothing to hide and perhaps airing out these shadows is what I need. Life is good, perfect even, at the moment and it's a good time to think back at what has led me here. As my mom says, I'm growing into a responsible young man. I don't know about the responsible part but I suppose I am becoming a man, finally. But what makes me who I am? This will be just as fun to find out for me as it will be for you. I never write down the things I think so here we go, the book of me.

Until next time, Shadow out :-D